Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Knowledge is Power

It is undeniable that knowledge can be used to gain power over an individual. Such is most of the basis of blackmail, and the rationale behind most secrets.

This brand of knowledge is, of course, knowledge which is thought to be able to harm an individual if widely known. For example, for some congressmen, the things that they do in restrooms. The exact contents of the stash under the mattress which was so popular before the Internet. Who someone is attracted to; who someone hates. Thoughts, emotions, and so forth.

Of course, that is only scratching the surface. I find that the past is the greatest source of power over me; knowledge of it is something which I would much rather have abolished (I was incredibly dorky, in a bad way, and I'll leave it at that). It's sort of a dark secret, I suppose, in that I would rather that everyone not mention it, ever. Most people seem to have picked up on this, or at least most of the people from the past. Sadly, one person has a tendency to mention it, and, more importantly, to allow that knowledge to scatter further.

This gives him a fair amount of power over me. Of course, a fair amount is relative; he does not seem especially inclined to exercise it - instead watching me squirm when he mentions it - although on further thought he might simply not want to exercise it directly.

That past is a foreign country, as they say, and it is not one which I would care to vacation in.

Compared to that, other knowledge - like who I am attracted to, what is on my computer, or my horrible taste in Anime/books/processors/whatever else - seems insignificant.

Oh, and for the record, my desktop uses a Celeron. So does my laptop. I'm not proud.

[ Minor addendum: I'm writing this at about 11:20. It's not very good - I'm still awake enough to know that - and I'll probably never get around to fixing it. Also, I apologize for the fact that this is turning into more of a blog and less of something which is shaped like a blog, looks like a blog, even feels like a blog, but is not a blog. Also, blog is a very silly word - something which is pretty well known, but I felt like mentioning it.
[ Probably, this post won't mysteriously vanish, like the last one, as soon as I wake up enough to realize how horrible it is. It might be editted slightly, though.
[ Oh, and about that last post? It will be back up, eventually, if I ever remember to edit it and repost it. As for why it went down? Well, recently I've found myself feeling very lonely, and in need of companionship - the warmth of another body, I suppose - and that post spawned out of those feelings. Yes, I am human. Yes, I've finally admitted it. No, I don't know how many people have just lost/won bets, or how many I owe money to, but I would guess none. If anyone actually is betting about when (or if) I'll admit that I'm human, what the fuck? Am I really that interesting, or are you just very bored? ]

[ Further addendum: Idea for a future post: exactly what is going wrong with my brain (it involves dehydration). ]

Thursday, January 01, 2009

Current Inventory

Currently, I carry the following items with me whenever I'm outside, either in my jacket or pockets:
  • Cellphone
  • Wallet (paper money, four bart cards, gift card, id)
  • Two cloths for cleaning glasses
  • A wrist-watch
  • A pair of gloves
  • An MP3 Player (and earbuds, of course)
  • One black sharpie
  • One unsharpened pencil
  • Two ballpoint pens
  • Three flash drives (1GB, 4GB, and 8GB)
  • Two MicroSD cards, both 2GB, in adapters to allow them to fit in normal SD slots
  • A swiss army card
  • A swiss army knife like device, which falls under a different brand
  • My keychain, with some keys and an LED light
  • A small kit which I'm not going to mention, as it might give the wrong impression
  • ( Occasionally ) A needle and thread
  • ( Occasionally ) two zombie finger puppets
To this, I may be adding:
  • A sonic screwdriver
  • An actual screwdriver, philips-head
  • A very bright LED flashlight
  • One or more zombie action figures
  • A scarf
If allowed to bring a bag as well, I will probably also have (in the case of my laptop bag):
  • An ultraportable laptop (what people typically call a netbook; the Eee 701)
  • A power brick for said laptop
  • At least one paperback book, often more
  • Duct tape, one or more rolls
  • A bottle of water
  • A clipboard, with paper (either graph or blank)
  • Various snack bars, and plastic bags of chocolate
  • Some more pens
  • A sketchbook
  • Anything else which I consider necessary for the situation; recently, this was a torte (I was going to a party)
  • A camera (I keep on telling myself to bring it ...)
  • Batteries (possibly. I should put more in my bags ...)
So ... yeah. Not as much stuff as I should probably be carrying around with me, but I think that I've reached a good balance between having what I need and not being weighed down too much by my jacket. Also, not much else will fit in the pockets. I'm considering looking into additional ways to transport more things, but there's not much else which I would expect to use on a routine basis, and I try to be at least somewhat logical.