Reflections on Valentine's Day

On most years, I consider Valentine's day to be a capitalist thing, barely worthy of the effort required to insult it. However, I must admit that it does have some things going for it: it is one of the few days in the year when it is considered to be a social neccessity to parade one's emotions in front of the entire world (wait, that's a good thing? I'll get to that in a moment), no matter if those emotions be happiness (at being in a relationship) or sadness (at being alone again).

So, I was in a relationship this Valentine's day, for the first time. Well ... to be exact, it did not begin this Valentine's day. In fact, I had (have?) been in a relationship, by and large outside of the public eye, for ... well, at least two months. I don't remember the exact time it began, but it certainly occured sometime before the beginning of December of 2007. Yes, this may surprise people who know me. It was a surprise to me as well, I suppose.

So, by and large outside the public eye? While many people may have noticed something, most of them probably thought that it was one-sided (and not on my side). One of my friends, in fact, thought that it was one-sided until just a few days before Valentine's. However, not until around Valentine's day was I sure that pretty much everyone knew.

I'm doing my best to take this all in stride, and to remember that almost all relatonships end. However, I still hope that I can prevent it from ending. I know that, if it does end (when it does?) I will have done my best to prevent it from ending. Short of drugs, force, etc., of course. And maybe I'll be one of the lucky ones and it won't end until I'm so jaded by this terrible world of ours (yours? I don't consider this world to be mine by any means) that I won't care. Or maybe it won't end, which is certainly what I hope.

Anyways, that was your dose of descovering that I am capable of human emotions, such as affection and love. Expect a does of sarcasm, satire, social commentary, and so forth tomorrow, if my plans for tomorrow don't work out - or maybe even if they do. I'm not sure what to write about, though. Maybe a sequal for The Seed? Maybe a rewrite? Something that will let me get away with both social commntary and gory descriptions of deaths, for sure.

(Written on the Eee, again. No spellchecker, and it's running quite slowly right now - probably because firefox has some other tabs open right now.)