Sushi is good. I just wanted to get that out of the way, first. Other things which are good include not having headaches, not fearing the future, not feeling sick, not being half asleep, not being worried by lack of hallucinations, and not being horribly confused. Sadly, none of those are able to apply to me right now.
I'm convinced that I'm able to detect some things in the future. Evidence for this is mostly on the hugely circumstantial and anecdotal level, but I have in the past felt backlash from negative events before they actually happened. That's also background information.
The actual information is that, recently, the future has become incredibly negative. Something bad is going to happen, in other words. The problem is that I don't know when. It might be very soon - and not so bad - or a while into the future and quite horrible. Horrible as in death, either mine, that of someone I care about, or random strangers, but on a huge scale.
I'm assuming injury / death because it doesn't feel like emotional trauma. That same fact can be used to assume that it's probably not the death of someone I care about (although, who knows, the numbing effect from that might explain the feeling). It would make a horrible degree of sense for it to be my death, in fact - and given that I'm due to die sometime in the next 15 years, it wouldn't be much of a surprise anyways (of course, the exact date is sometime in 2023 or 2024, so it would be earlier than expected).
I'm also assuming that I'm only picking up on my own emotions / responses; if that's not true, it could also be the deaths of lots of people, or something similar.
And, if this effect actually exists, and will be proven to exist sometime soon, it could be my future self trying to send me a message, warning me away from a course of action by torturing hundreds or thousands of people to death.
Or, I might just be insane, or delusional. I walk a very fine line, after all.
I wonder how much of this I really believe?
I'm convinced that I'm able to detect some things in the future. Evidence for this is mostly on the hugely circumstantial and anecdotal level, but I have in the past felt backlash from negative events before they actually happened. That's also background information.
The actual information is that, recently, the future has become incredibly negative. Something bad is going to happen, in other words. The problem is that I don't know when. It might be very soon - and not so bad - or a while into the future and quite horrible. Horrible as in death, either mine, that of someone I care about, or random strangers, but on a huge scale.
I'm assuming injury / death because it doesn't feel like emotional trauma. That same fact can be used to assume that it's probably not the death of someone I care about (although, who knows, the numbing effect from that might explain the feeling). It would make a horrible degree of sense for it to be my death, in fact - and given that I'm due to die sometime in the next 15 years, it wouldn't be much of a surprise anyways (of course, the exact date is sometime in 2023 or 2024, so it would be earlier than expected).
I'm also assuming that I'm only picking up on my own emotions / responses; if that's not true, it could also be the deaths of lots of people, or something similar.
And, if this effect actually exists, and will be proven to exist sometime soon, it could be my future self trying to send me a message, warning me away from a course of action by torturing hundreds or thousands of people to death.
Or, I might just be insane, or delusional. I walk a very fine line, after all.
I wonder how much of this I really believe?
3 comments:
Sushi IS good.
Wait, you have regular hallucinations? That's interesting, especially given how repressed you seem to be.
I believe it is quite possible you are indeed able to detect some things in the future, simply because I believe it to be within the range of human capability, and you claim to have anecdotal evidence.
If it is indeed large-scale bad, while I don't know the scope or range of your clairvoyance, I would say prepare for a major earthquake (one is due sometime soon) or World War 3. Oh, and throw Z-Day in there, just to be sure.
Depends on what you mean by regular. And hallucinations; it would be just as accurate to say that my mind is having issues with boundaries between fiction/dream and reality. And repressed? Well, I suppose that I can't exactly argue.
Current thinking is that it has something to do with EVI, mostly because it's supposed to be very scary, and that doesn't actually require anyone to die.
Or it's just a watchdog telling me that the probabilities have shifted in favor of negative outcomes, which would explain why it's completely gone now. I prefer that explanation, actually: it's just a small hiccup in my mental processes, and doesn't mean that any bad things will happen, even though they might.
Reality is relative. All one knows is that one exists and has sense experiences, "reality" is just what one perceives as being what everyone else perceives. Of course, it's possible to have an unstable perception of reality without actually hallucinating, but if you were actually hallucinating, that would be more interesting.
Hrm… this is why it would be useful to know everything.
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